SAD & ANGRY TTM!!!

I'm begin forgotten by my family....
Totally sad to the MAX!!!!!

How could them be so easily forgotten me??
HAIZ X100!!!!!!

My heart totally sunk into the deep blue sea..
I couldn't find a words to speak up for their action..
It totally hurts into my heart..

I don't want to talk!!
The feeling is really ttm.....

Suyu

ARE U DUMD OR STUPID??

ARG!!!!! tdy paper i did very very badly...
i take it too lightly already..
everything just happen too fast and past!!

I regretted!!
totally very disappointed and depress now..
whole heart sunk into deep blue sea..

my heart is freeze up once again..
i doesn't want to talk, i doesn't want to know...

suyu :((

3 days to F3

my first acca paper is only 3 days away..
stress is all over head and body..
good luck to me pls...

i really need the luck to pass..
congrat ettrick pass his F1..
really hope i could make it thro..

i think i have to quit ntuc soon...
really need a full time job with fix hr and fix monthly income..

SUYU JIA YOU!!!
sebas, ettrick and meiying...
let work hard for exam okay??

GOOD LUCK!!!

suyu

4th day of study week~

have no conclusion on my revision..
wat i can say it only SUX!!!!!
too last min...

i feel nothing can go in my brain..
haix...
stress is climbing all over my head..
it killing me soon~

thanks jerome for teaching me ytd..
own u one meal...
will find u out after my exam okay??

sebas is coming out to study tgt,
due to my laziness...

okay la..
revision start again~
haix!!

Suyu

secret that have to keep to myself~~
haix..

i feel that i made the wrong choice again..
so sorry~

not to comment much better..

Suyu

exam~

stress is climbing up to my head....
i feel so stress and helpless!!
haix....

dunno wat i have been doing in class...
everything seem to do understand in class but when doing self revision,
nothing come to my mind...~

haix..

i really dunno how am i going to pass my exam like that.
hope there really miracle lo...

thanks wk giving some encouraging words.
"The word impossible comes from the word i'm possible.... "

Suyu

PASSION

it has be something that every week i looking forward for...
but time passes, it had changed!!
it becoming something that i hate or i dont want to care anymore..

hate it so so so much because of "HIM"
arg....

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HATE YOU TO THE CORE!!!

pls fuck off from my sight,
i doesn't want to talk to you...
pls fuck off far far away from me...
i wont know what i doing if i'am not in good mood...
you better dont come towards me and talk rubbish to me!!
i will mayb kick your ass and walk off....

FUCK TO MARS OR ANY OTHER PLACES!!!

Suyu

Complicated feeling....

Wanted to take out my book and study,
end up playing computer the whole day again!!

Haiz...
When i can really stop this bad habit..??
Tml work, den wed off..

Next 2 week Monday class has move forward to 9.30am instead of 10am.
Haiz..

My F1 really cannot make it sia..
Hope there someone can really explain to me what does those English really mean..

Hate theory so much..
But I have no choice...
I need the cert, so MUST STUDY!!

Hope I'll open out my book and start study ba..

Suyu

16 March 1.48am

Feel so emo at this moment..
feeling so down out of sudden..
feel like crying, feel like everything sunk into the deep blue sea..

shoulder start to be tends again..
when can i go thro this period?
have i really make the correct choice?
is that what i want?

I really wonder how long this will it be..
I'm really feel so so so stress!!
Can somebody lend me a big shoulder??

How I wish there is....

haiz........

1.53am, think I go sleep liao ba..
tml 10am to 1pm class,
5pm to 10.30pm work..
wonder when will this stop??

Suyu
-_-,

5th day of March!!

LOL....
so happy ya, i finally got my pay come in.
waited for 1month plus...
since 21Jan i haven't got any $$ coming in lo..

now finally feel relief..
shoulder not so heavy suddenly =)

gonna work hard ya..
ntuc pay is not bad ya..
like the ppl there..
all so friendly...
aunty so nice.. =D

happy~~

gonna study really hard now..
i can slowly feel the stress that coming in..
god, please bless me i can pass 3 paper tgt..
so to move on to next level....
=D

Suyu

1st of March!

It was March already!!
OMG....
tis year, really pass very very fast..
now already MARCH!!!

i haven't being studying and saving any $$ up..
zzz...
dunno whether i can safety pass my paper and able to continue with paper 4 to 6..

see how ba..
it so so so hard!!!

gonna study hard!!

Suyu

Enjoy single life

Actually being single is also not a very bad choice..
=)
kind of like it..
no stress, no quarrel, no jealousy, etc.....

Slack at home since 2plus after school..
Now waiting time to go training! =)
My motivation not to get lazy..
Haha!!

Today lesson was good ya..
Kind of understand what lecturer teaching =)
Due to some was learn in ITE.

Thanks so much to ITE teacher..
Make me do so so so many revision or pass year paper, until now some of the question that appeared i can do it =)

Actually going ITE wasn't a bad one..
So be positive going ITE, cos u learn more than what was taught outside =)

Off to training..

Suyu

home sweet home 2nd day

2day at home..
kind of bored..
every night my father and his fren mahjong session..
zzz...

Don't know what are my feeling now..
no words can explain it out..

"HAIZ"

Suyu

sadSadSad!!!!!

feeling are all over my eyes...
tonight are lonely..

wonder this is my start or our end?

I don't know you notice any changes in ur hse a not,
but in my msg already clearly said..

none a words from you that i am waiting for..
getting more disappointed every min and hr...

fren can only can be fren, how could it become that way?
have you ever think of my feeling saying that?

if i nvr saw it, so izzit mean you gonna continue happily do that?
what am i to you??

you still have to mood to slp..
haiz..

i feel i can't hold on tis anymore..
enough of hurts from you..
my tears are like free flow..

i doesn't want cry anymore..
hate the sour feeling around my heart..
hate the person that don't know it hurts me..

hate myself MORE!!!!!
fuck to hell..

Suyu

Morning!!!

my first post in the morning for 2010.
thanks to myself so hardworking..
waking up so early..
haha!!

no la!!!
actually is eileen's message wake me up.
LOL.

Later going shopping and lunch with her =D
think she has waited very long liao..
HAHA!!

not yet buy new year cloth...
zzz
dunno where the $$ come to buy oso..
haiz..

nvm lo..
see how ba..

Suyu

Such a long date to my salary

Haiz..

I'm dying without $$$$$$$$
my salary please come fast!!
I really dying soon...

Study are still okay..
but no revision was done yet..
HAHA!!!
due to lazy and have computer to use.
and tt why i'm updating my blog =D

Almost the whole week working 5 to 10.20pm..
But ytd was drag until 11pm den off to go..
=(
so ke lian..
plus no transport back home..
zzz

lucky i staying at daniel hse.
if not i really need to walk back to hougang.
I think tt will kill me man..

Hope today 10pm can close counter and by 10.20pm finish counting all my sales...
Even tml no school but i feel, i'm lack of sleeping time..
Dark circle are more and more dark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG...

I think CNY I'll scare ppl with my dark circle ba..
HAHA!!

need to nap awhile before i go work.
bye~

Suyu

CANT SLEEP!!!!!!

haiz..

my time since like going up side down..
night was like morning to me and morning are night to me..
zzz

very hard to get into slp in the night..
mayb something are running thro in my mind..

i dunno why, or wat wrong with me..
something seem like changing..

haiz..

dunno where to start and how to end..
let nature take it cause ba..

hope it won't get worst..

tml 4pm to 10pm working..
haiz..
not sure oso..

hope my salary can faster come.
i really not enough to support myself liao..

$$ are REALLY HARD TO EARN!!

Suyu

4th day of feb..

time passed so fast!
now is already 2nd month of 2010.
but yet, i haven't do any revision on my study.

haiz..
kind of lazy, no mood, disappointed and etc and etc..

lost of motivation to do anything that in mind.
hate the feeling of fail in life..

doesn't want see that words in my life.
but....
as time go by, when we are big..
this words tend to be appearing everywhere!!!!!

hope i can walk out if it...
now the most important thing is my study and work hard for $$..
dunno when this kind of life will end....??

god, led me thro pls..
I'm kind of lost in my way already..
why aren't u standing beside me??

haiz..

hope this difficult period will pass thro fast.
i feel like i cant catch up my breadth already..

Suyu
=(

FAILED!!!!

Tis words appeared again..!!
haiz..

super sad la..
did one careless mistake in circuit and FUCK the honda white car that just cut into my lane when i was doing right turn.. end up turning into the wrong lane..
zzz

alot of minus point when driving outside..
haiz..

try again on 23 April..
it is super long..
but no choice..

stupid me, choice 8.25am again..
zz

hope the next one will be a better one ba..

Suyu

TP tml...........................

ARG......................

today can't do parking properly and even srew up everything in the circuit...
zzz

uncle get inpatient with me..
LOL..

Hope tml will be okay..
GOD BLESS PLS!!!!

Suyu